a page of life…

ever felt like your the worst person in the world or the type of person with whom no one wud like 2 be with?the type of person who jus cant stand himself leave aside others..the person who jus gets angry at the most smallest of things..or rather hunts for excuse 2 remove his frustration..jus 2 burst out ..all to realize it isnt helpin..damagin your ownself and ppl around u…the time wen your tired of bein alone but dont want any to come nearby u..the time wen u begin to question your sanity…the time wen bangin you head on the wall seems like the perfect solution..the time wen u start to emphatize with ppl..who hav commited suicide…the time wen all the things you wudnt want to do …is the only ting you crave for now!…time wen..the wierdst n the most darkest side of ur nature…goes on the leash..n u jus cant control it…feels like its makin sum forgetable n sum not so forgetable dents in ur life…the time wen  u feel the mistakes u had committed previously are justified…some mite say its height of frustration..sum mite term it as pure stupidity..but then..either of them doesnt proove ur insane…but it gets so confusin that u cant even find a emotion 2 describe…the time wen rage..anger…etc..feel like a mild feelin compared to wat u are goin thru…the phase jus doesnt seem 2 leave u…rather it comes bak 2 you..in times when u least need it 2…its jus sumtin ur stupid self does 2 pull you down..or lets say make holes on board of a smooth sailin ship..it pulls u dwn slow n steady…they are times wen…even ur best music..or ur best frnd..dnt come in handy..it is urself..n i guess..to get of your own dark side..is one hell of a task…!